Life has been a little bit ‘meh’ lately. I’m not sure why because things have been going well. Nothing significant has happened, yet my emotions and thoughts have been all over the place. Can you relate?
I fall off the grid slightly when this happens, retreat into myself and try to work on whatever the hell is going on. This can be the tricky part. Sometimes I have absolutely no idea what is going on, like the past few weeks, but it’s still so important to acknowledge the feelings and thoughts that are rising, and not just resort to that mask that we put on and pretend that everything is hunky dory!
Mindfulness was a game changer for me when I took an 8 week course of it in 2018. Being taught how to just sit with yourself and listen to the things that we normally try to quieten down or push away just changed things for me. Along with my meditation practice and some other rituals, I made sure that I ‘checked-in’ with myself daily. I’ll be honest though, while pregnant with my son last year and throughout the first 6 months of his life, I completely fell off the wagon. All of my usual things that I took time to do for myself were non existent, sleep and food were basically my go to when the baby and other kids didn't need me.
Over the past few weeks, while trying to dig in and figure out what was going on, I knew I had to get fully back to my practice. Doing all these spiritual things (or woo woo as some of you may call it) helps me. It really does. I honestly don’t think I would be the person that I am or in the position that I am today if I hadn't went down this path in 2017. I am grateful every single day for it. We all make choices, some good and others not so much. But we do all have the choice to make positive changes in our lives. So, I got back to it all. My husband bought me a Soul Hub water tub for my birthday last month, so I got that filled up and started having a cold water dip in the garden after putting the kids to bed at night. Freezing and one of the most difficult things to do, but my god do you feel amazing afterwards. I sit there for 5-10 minutes meditating or watching the bats fly from tree to tree above me. Something that I would have freaked about in the past by the way! For some reason I now find them magical. Death and rebirth is the spiritual meaning of a bat. I definitely believe that I am going through that in many areas of my life.
After my dip my space is all set up waiting for me; crystals out, incense burning, meditation music on and journal ready to be written in. I write down everything that came to me during my dip. This is when I noticed I was starting to receive messages. They made absolutely no sense to me. I didn’t recognise the names or anything I was being told, so I thought on it for a few days and decided to post one on my Instagram stories. Two people replied to let me know that the messages made complete sense to them, and so many more got in touch asking me to keep doing it as it was really interesting and even felt comforting reading them. This was scary for me because as much as I know I have a gift, I still don’t fully believe in myself. I doubt what I get from spirit. However, this could most definitely let me connect and build my confidence. Each day, if I feel up to it, I now connect and ask for messages for anyone who follows my page. That next day when people message to say “I think this is for me” is honestly the most incredible feeling. And it also leads to a little chat about what is going on in that person’s life, which also provides some relief for them. I love it.
How scary is it putting yourself out there though! I think I’ve always worried that people will think I’m talking absolute crap. I’m now seeing that is not the case. So many are interested in or intrigued by the woo woo. I’ve even been asked to do card readings for people which is way out of my comfort zone, but guess what, I’ve been doing it! I’m at a point in life where I just think, if you want something go for it. I never ever thought that I would be able to make a career out of spiritual work, but each week I seem to be creating more and more of a career out of it. And most importantly, I am beginning to feel fulfilled. I believe they few weeks of feeling off where to get me back on the right path. Maybe I was swaying off course a little and the Universe needed me to be heading in the right direction.
I love it. I love the woo woo. Anyone else who does or if you're maybe interested in it all but no idea where to begin, send me a message. Let’s connect! There are so many weird and wonderful beings out there who are all into this amazing stuff, so let’s get together and enjoy it.
People always call me a witch in a jokey way, little do they know I’m actually proud to call myself one and so are many others in my life.
xox